A sense of progression
I've been building trackmania maps a lot recently. A few maps, a lot of work.
And I kind of love it.
But then today, I send a couple maps to map review, get not the best feedback, and feel really down about it. I also might be a little burnt out on mapping.
These are maps I'm really proud of though.
And then the day goes on and it strikes me (as is often the case) how unimportant the things I do are. I build trackmania maps, play Rocket League, or some other game.
I wanna buy this game AviAssembly because it looked pretty fun & satisfying, but like why? I have a billion other games already, I'll knock it around for a few hours, and then be done, like I am with all the other ones.
It's an incremental game which will give me a sense of progression. I like that.
But where's my progression in real life?
A couple weeks ago I was feeling determined. I was working on my software. i did some writing, printed some anti-fascist flyers, and went to a protest.
And then I crashed. It's been like 12 days since then and I've barely had it in me to do anything meaningful with my time. I can't write. I can't code. I can barely do chores.
And I'm gearing up for a busy weekend. Helping Bestie move, seeing family that's in town, and doing easter.
So I skipped the gym this week, as to not overload myself with all these activities.
I will be overloaded.
Anyway, it's like my last free day until Monday. I'm basically just all used up for the next 3 days. And I'm like ... wanting to get the best out of my time. But I'm bored of my games. And I don't want to do anything meaningful cuz I really don't have the energy to spare.
Should I just get the game? being poor sucks.