depressed today
most days I care about / am interested in my video games and some youtube creators or the news or SOMETHING.
Today it's all just seemed kinda meh to me. Like I enjoyed playing some trackmania and some rocket league, but it just was missing that spark that makes it feel ... fulfilling?
Thought about going for a walk, couldn't make it happen. Thought about trying to hang with friends. Put out one soft-request but couldn't really do it.
I cleaned up the back patio a bit. Oh and i did play games with bestie!
Now its time to ... idk ... kill time until bed.
Usually I'm excited for my alone time, my game time, my chill on the couch and brain rot with internet tv time, and ... well i crave it too.
But today it's just like ...
I'm too depressed to do anything out-of-routine, but my routine just isn't doing it for me today.
I think I need more socialization in my life ... but most days I really really feel like I need my alone time.