ReedyBear's Blog

self acceptance

Yesterday I spoke to my library's board about planting native grasses & flowers. The Director gave me his card and said to call or email him.

I emailed and said I was available for a meeting. It occurred to me later that I'd misunderstood the situation & he probably didn't want a meeting.

I felt really embarrassed about it. He replied this morning, letting me know the city owns the property, so that's where I ought to direct my advocacy. It was totally fine, but that doesn't stop me from feeling embarrassed and anxious.

I often misunderstand social cues or don't know how to behave in a social context.

And I need to just accept that. I'm going to make many social mistakes in my future. I'm gonna embarrass myself. I put myself out there a lot, so I fuck up a lot, usually in pretty harmless and minor ways.

I gotta stop berating myself for saying the "wrong" thing or for embarrassing myself. I gotta just own it, man. Be embarrassed, go "yeah, that's how I am sometimes" and move on.

It's okay for me to embarrass myself. It's just part of who I am.

What "flaw" might you need to work on accepting?

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