a spatial sense of thoughtspeak
You have a spatial sense, and when you hear a sound, you typically know where it is coming from. in front, behind, updown, leftright, whatever.
Well that same spatial sense seems to apply to thoughtspeak in my head. Typically, iiii THINK it's a vague spatial sense as if its just ... in my head.
But I was just meditating and I became acutely aware of that spatial sense. My eyes were closed, and so the ... space inside my head ... was larger than normal. Know what I mean?
Like normally, my inside-head-space is a small blip within the world around me. But my eyes are closed, and I'm breathing deeply, and that inside-head-space expands, and the outside world sort of shrinks away, falling beyond the horizon.
And then within that larger inside-head-space, I noticed some thoughts felt like they were located in different spots, different spots in a pseudo-physical space. They wiggled my spatial sense.
I'm really curious about this. I want to pay some attention to this, especially when meditating, at least sometimes.
Sidenote A: The meditations ask me to be aware of my thoughts. Today, I realized I want to be aware of the DRIVER of those thoughts. That little nagging sense at the base of my ... head? idk it's like they're BEHIND my thoughts, spatially, like toward the back of my head? Its weird. Anyway. I want to look past the thoughts and be aware of the feelings or internal activity or whatever the heck it is driving those thoughts. It's sort of a compulsive feeling.
Sidenote B: The guided meditations often ask me to notice thoughts or tensions in my body, to be aware of them & accept them, then gently move my attention back toward my breath. So rarely, if ever, do they ask me to be aware of ease in my body, or to be aware of silence in my mind. Sidenote B part 2: When there is silence in my mind and I am aware of it, this is true peace for me. It is generally short, fleeting, and rarely occurs in daily life. It is common during meditation.