ReedyBear's Blog

Mistakes

I play a fair bit of Rocket League. And I'm very aware of my mistakes. And self-critical.

My stomach drops as a failure overtakes me, and rather than being in the play, I'm distracted by emotion.

The ball flies overhead, I didn't react fast enough, it goes in.

I jumped to defend, and I flop in the air.

"I should have had that"

"We need to score 2" (to win)

We don't need to win.

We're just making a movie.

I am not the protagonist.

And I do not need to win.

I just need to make a good show.

Is it one I want to watch?


I quick chat a lot in rocket league.

"Nice shot! Nice shot! Nice shot! Nice demo!"

I get excited.

"Bumping!" (them speaking)

"Thanks"

(Oh, I meant Nice Demo)

Twisted in a knot.

Another mistake.


I give myself grace.

I am not a perfect rocket league player. I make mistakes.

I'm not a perfect person. I mis-speak.

And I always want to redress it.

But sometimes, stuff just happens and you move on.

Not every mistake needs fixing.

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