Mistakes
I play a fair bit of Rocket League. And I'm very aware of my mistakes. And self-critical.
My stomach drops as a failure overtakes me, and rather than being in the play, I'm distracted by emotion.
The ball flies overhead, I didn't react fast enough, it goes in.
I jumped to defend, and I flop in the air.
"I should have had that"
"We need to score 2" (to win)
We don't need to win.
We're just making a movie.
I am not the protagonist.
And I do not need to win.
I just need to make a good show.
Is it one I want to watch?
I quick chat a lot in rocket league.
"Nice shot! Nice shot! Nice shot! Nice demo!"
I get excited.
"Bumping!" (them speaking)
"Thanks"
(Oh, I meant Nice Demo)
Twisted in a knot.
Another mistake.
I give myself grace.
I am not a perfect rocket league player. I make mistakes.
I'm not a perfect person. I mis-speak.
And I always want to redress it.
But sometimes, stuff just happens and you move on.
Not every mistake needs fixing.