Re: there just isn’t much to say
reply to there just isn’t much to say | itskristin:
I blog because I enjoy writing, I compulsively think, I have ideas I want to record and share. I want to catalogue things, like books, links, thoughts, opinions, and spiritual realizations.
It helps me process feelings & thoughts, it's an outlet, it's a dumping ground.
Some of it is quality. Much is not. I barely edit, or try too hard to say things the "right" way. I do try to communicate well, but also say "fuck it" a lot.
isn’t blogging supposed to be about you? isn’t it supposed to be for you? and not the clamor for engagement and eyes on your post?
I do often look at my bear counter & it's nice if my writing is seen and appreciated. I have some urge to check it, though there is resistance, because that's not what I'm blogging for.
If I want eyes, I'll make a YouTube video. Though I hate video editing and it's so high effort. I could use a platform/medium for written works I care to share, because that's not what I want to use this for.
I have the same issue with journaling. sometimes there is just nothing to say and no introspection to be done. I went to work, my coworkers did this, my kids did this, my parents are doing this, I’m doing whatever. it’s just, like, nothing.
I don't really know what that's like. I have my moments where there is nothing to say and no introspection to be done, but I am under the near-constant assault of thoughts, anxieties, stressors, and often physical pain.
My brain just won't stop going going going. I love my ideas & insights & social growth that's come from this.
I don't love the inability to fall asleep, to calm down, to stay focused for an extended period of time, to just fucking chill.
I have my days, and I think "Why don't I do this more often?" (relax & watch a movie or go for a long walk in woods)
and it's because I'm stressed out of my mind and exhausted and unmotivated and unable to make myself do something i want to do or that I know is good for me.
some people use bearblog like a portfolio, others like a diary, and others like a media dumping ground.
I re-read my prayer-related posts today, and it was really nice to rediscover some of my meditations. I wrote them when they were fresh, and it's easy to lose touch.