sensation of remembering
When i try to remember something, there's a sensation in my head. It's like a hum inside my brain, prodding it.
Then a memory pops up. An image in my mind. Usually something related that gets me closer.
My brain has a "remember" function and I know how to access it. But I don't know how to describe actually doing it.
I can say things like "Think about somebody who was there" or "what does the place look like that you were at", prompting context around the target memory.
But those are also using the "remember" function (and "imagine").
When doing this, I believe I'm altering my brain chemistry & electricity. Triggering the release of chemicals that bond in synapses to carry signals to ... find the memory, i guess.
I can also do this by saying awful things to myself in my head, or saying kind things to myself, or by going outside.
There's things I can choose to do that will make me happy, which will cause different chemical and electrical stuff to happen in my brain (if my layman's understanding of brains is right).
What's weird to me here is that I got a SENSE today. A SENSE of that "remember" function. An awareness of the fact that I was directing my brain in this particular way.