time to kill
I slept 3.5 hours last night, 3 the "night" before, and not great the few nights prior. I'm tired. My day is long.
[literally i'm just writing this post to pass the time while files copy from one drive to another]
I'm doing some maintenance on my file storage. I have an external SSD that's 1GB which I've long intended to use for backups ... but I haven't. I just haven't done it because I struggle to just get through the day & I don't generally have the energy + time to deal with technical shit.
But with this sleep deprivation, and a bit of obsession, I'm driving to work on this problem. I discovered that my "backup" drive actually had my previous windows install on it. I forgot about that. I have since switched to the higher-end crucial drive (from MX to BX) for my windows install, but I never cleaned up the files on the old drive.
I have no idea if I already copied important files from that old drive. But anyway I'm copying them now! I copied all the little files in various folders that I cared about - documents, pictures, desktop files, etc.
But also on that drive was "DEVICES FROM LINUX - LGm430" ... that's an old phone of mine that got stolen. I was stopping by my weed dealers house when it happened. And I think he wasn't responding to my text? or maybe I just got caught up in the moment.
A woman came up to my window who I didn't know. She said my dealer was not around at that time. She sold me a bag of honestly fucking trash weed. It got the job done, but I remember it being kinda trash.
During this exchange, she reached in my fucking window and grabbed my phone out of my passenger seat. I lost a bunch of photos, I think.
Oh wait! No I still have my LG m430. That was an even older phone.
But yeah. Lost a bunch of photos. I think I had them backed up on my laptop ... but at some point I threw that old laptop away ... I made some decisions in my 20s that I regret. I like to keep all my old shit and organize it. It's probably unhealthy. It might be obsessive-compulsive shit. It might just be me having a penchant for archiving.
I also had a cloud backup service. I paid for it for a year or two, then stopped when my life fell apart. They emailed me at some point saying "We're gonna delete your data in 6 months but you can get it now if you want. call us". They probably said it more professional than that.
Well I didn't act. they deleted my data. I called them like a year or two after they deleted it just to double-check. Unfortunately, it was gone.
So I don't think I had any backups of my photos. Some were surely posted to Facebook or maybe in google photos? I don't know what was going on back then. Hm.
I also lost a shit load of code when I threw away that old laptop and neglected to restore my backup from the cloud provider. I regret that more than anything probably. Probably like 2 or 3 years of work that I lost. I recovered some of the old code, cuz I had it backed up somewhere... idr how that happened.
But I lost pretty much all my android code. That fucking sucked. That still makes me sad. I don't dev android anymore, I haven't in a long time, and I don't think I care to ever dev android again or any mobile app. And anyway the ecosystem has changed so much, I doubt any of my old code still works. Idunner.
Erm. The reason I'm writing this blog post is because those LGM430 files are copying from that backup drive to my internal secondary drive. Its only 10 gigs. But its hella slow bc its over USB, using an external docking station, and its a cheap SSD, and ... idk. Lots of small files too?
When I started writing this post, it had 18 minutes left ... It has copied 3 gigs over, and now it has 3 hours and 15 minutes left. Sooo that's going really great.
I read that these cheaper drives have a data-transfer cache that allows them to perform at really high speeds, but the cache gets full, then it has to fully write-to-disk so the transfer speeds slow way down. I wonder if my internal disk is suffering from that problem. But its probably just all the small files.
Trackmania's cup of the day is in 14 minutes. I'm probably gonna have to stop this file transfer. Idk. Mb I leave it running in the background. Yeah. Maybe.
My stomach feels yucky. I'm ridiculously tired. I've been too tired to exercise or go on walks or do the emotional work of pushing through "I DONT WANNA". I've been snacking a lot to comfort myself through the night when the stress is big. And my digestion is probably all fucked up right now. And I'm on my second BIG cup of coffee, which I usually don't have until 1pm or 2pm.
Fucking tired, dude.
I gotta pee. I'm gonna go pee then get ready for cup of the day, and I think I'll just let these files transfer while I play.
Good luck me.
Good luck you.